Guard your heart...

Such an amazing verse that so many take in different views.

Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

But really, what does that mean to you? If I had read this before I came to Christ...I would be saying "THIS HEART IS MINE..YOU WILL NOT HURT ANYMORE...I HAVE CONTROL OF IT ALL..MY TRUST IS IN NO ONE BUT ME..." that is just a tiny bit of past thought. Back when my ex announced his cheating on me...I guarded my heart for years and years to come...not letting it be open to him, to people, to myself, most of all...to our Lord and Savior...Jesus Christ.

I have learned over the years thru big mistakes of my own, how we are all sinners. Didn't have to read that in the Bible to realize that. Sure, they are all equal in God's eyes, but at times, don't you feel like what you've done, or a friend, or family member...repeatedly, seems to be a "higher" up sin in ranking for God? Seems like a larger checkmark on the chalkboard for someone should happen from Christ sometimes...but He doesn't judge...as we shouldn't, as for we should be more and more Christ-Like.

But it hurts when loved ones hurt us. When they don't follow thru. When they lie. When they don't communicate with their children in divorces...just move on. There is so much pain...and we always seem to want to point a finger somewhere. Instead of understanding...we have been there too. We have hurt people as well. We have hurt Christ...but He so forgives us every moment as His children. Why can't we be more like Him? Why do we have to get hit hard to realize WOW...I was warned that person would hurt me...because they are going thru tough times, or on drugs, or abused, confused, not into Christ, etc....We seem to have to also go thru something "hands on" even when we get pre-warnings from others who know what the outcome may be with certain choices. But we have to live and learn. We have to, yes, guard our hearts...but for those who we love, our family, friends, Christ-sisters and brothers, etc..but when anyone..family or not, come in and shake you...YOU GUARD THAT HEART FULL OF FAITH AND LOVE FOR OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST...and you don't let Satan work thru someone to knock the amazing plans Christ has for you...onto a longer misguided road. You love ALL thru Christ--for Christ. But you do not let anyone take HIM OUT OF YOUR HEART...to affect your life, your family, YOUR FAITH!

So my initial thought on guarding my heart was very selfish and out of bounds. But we all do it...when we have to guard it for our love for Christ...as we give our hearts to Him. He is our life, our everything...never let anyone lead you astray!

Colossians 2: 8
Don't let anyone lead you astray with empty philosophy and high-sounding nonsense that come from human thinking and from the evil powers of this world, and not from Christ.

God bless you all...I am so blessed to be connected with each and everyone of you!

Blessing and Love thru Christ,

Hetty Siebens


Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways ACKNOWLEDGE HIM, and He will make your paths straight.


Together We WILL BE...

Life can be frustrating
Life can seem wrong
Life can feel daunting
Life's troubles seem long

Life with you is reassuring
Life with you there's no fight
Life with you is quite soothing
Life with you there's no plight

Together life's better,
no..together life's great,
for together we see the very true souls,
not just the ordinary states.

So one day you and I WILL be,
no, one day, we will all be THREE,
and the future will hold such promises,
promises that are meant to be.

I love you my dear Christian,
you're my best friend in this life,
I'll be with you always dear love,
until were with Jesus-with no more strife.

Love you,


I wrote this for I knew who was my husband to be back- July 8, 2004...GOD WORKS WONDERS THRU OUR TRUST AND LOVE AND OBEDIENCE TO OUR MAKER!! ;) I am so blessed to be with Christian...whom my daughter sees as Daddy...and I know who God planned for me. AMEN!! He works wonders...always know that!



Then, Than, Love

Did you ever think that we would ever be more than acquaintances back in our trial times? More then, than a friend? More then, than an in and out lover? More then, than a problem solver? More then, than an advice giver? More then, than a favor provider? More then, than a get away couple? More then, than a dream team? More then, than sorrow candidates? More then, than poignant people in pity? More then, than two with no rules? More then, than lies and no truths? More then, than ends with no future beginnings--beginnings with tragic ends? More then, than love extends to others on the face of this earth?
For some reason, love holds us up strong, walks with us...through good and bad, happy and sad, rough or smooth road, holds us up entirely to be together...for me...for you. Love.

I am no longer lost, I am found by you, by your heart...

Please, stay with us, stay by me. Love has found us, and won't fall from us...keep me in your heart no matter where you are. You are always, always in mine!

I love you!


Written to my boyfriend then...hubby today...Christian...@flyingchristian wrote this to him 7/10/04 knowing God would have us marry one day!! :) AMEN!

Praise Jesus for Him!!

I love you Christian...

Blessings to you all!!!

In His Love,


1 John 4:19 We love each other as a result of HIS loving US FIRST.

This man was my rock...

All I can say is, life had been frustrating. You see it and ask God...why was I born? You go from this you go to that. All so negative, all so wrong. You run into good just to be hit with bad. It continues for time. Time, time that feels like it will run on and on like a clock that won't die. You then look at yourself, in disgrace in remorse and ask "Won't it get better, won't my life change?" You then think it won't, you look down at your feet, you cry like a child, a child that got beat. You then contemplate how to do it and if you are strong enough. Strong enough to carry out the task. The task to leave all others and the trials you did not defeat. You don't talk to others about your issues on life. You just judge them yourself and live in denial. You let the problems get worse, you plan to quit life in a while. Now people keep asking what is the matter with me. Why are they caring now, just let me be. For I am unworthy for anyone's love, for anyone's trust. I haven't made life change. And a complete change in me is a must. Then this wonderful man had entered my life. He had entered it happily though my life caused so much strife. He stuck with me through all of my pain. All of my issues that you would think I was insane. No, this man was caring, this man was my rock. Caused me to get better, caused others to talk. About how I got better, about how I could smile. They were quite shocked, they hadn't seen that in a while. I am so worthy to be happy in life, for now I know how to...to be Christians wife. (HAPPY!)

I wrote this to my dear hubby today...boyfriend back then...on 6/19/04 Vented a bit about what I had gone thru---after ex beat me, overdosing, until coma...almost death hits...but Christ had plans! And we are such an amazing....happily married couple today...PRAISE JESUS!

Love you,


Jeremiah 17:15 Heal me,O LORD,and I shall be healed;save me,and I shall be saved,for You are my praise.


Let's Grow Old...

I've got great dedication
to the best man there is
life sure seems it's ending
on a vast burning bridge

For it just may seem impossible
but you need to hold on tight
that bridge that feels it's coming down
could be the one that gives you light!

Just look beyond all your problems
look toward the coming years
for I'm tired of waiting for flawlessness
continuing that would cause me tears

The world is full of emptiness
if it doesn't contain love
It captured us and held us close
we were guided from Above

We all need to learn love
need to learn to receive
for if our love doesn't contain both
our life together will not breathe

We need passion
We need faith
We need commitment
but for God's precious sake...

We need each other's hand
down every winding road
life's weather can get harsh
and fearful stories could be told

We have to stay strong
don't collapse, do not fold
for you and I are worth it all
we're both fearless, we're both bold

So much in my life, broke my heart
but meeting you, put me back at start
a new breath of life,starts a new way of living
full of sweet love and excitement we are giving

So hold on tight with me now
For I can't wait to mold
you quench my thirst as we are young
We'll hold strong while we grow old

God bless your soul dear Christian...my sweet husband Jesus blessed me with!!! I thank Him every day for you!!

Wrote this 7/12/04....we married thru His plans our obedience 10/06/07

I am so blessed!!

God bless you all...

In His Love,

Heather Siebens

Colossians 3:14 And the MOST important piece of clothing you must wear is LOVE. LOVE is what binds us all together in perfect harmony.


Trusting our Father

My precious child and her father....thanks to our FATHER!!!

Romans 8:14-17 For ALL who are led by the Spirit of God are sons (children) of God. For if you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons (children), by whom we cry, Abba! Father! The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that WE ARE CHILDREN OF GOD, and if children, then heirs-heirs of God AND fellow heirs WITH CHRIST, provided we SUFFER WITH HIM in order that we may ALSO BE GLORIFIED WITH HIM!!!

All I can say is AMEN!!

I am sure not the only one in dire need of Him...to trust Him. This past week has been an intense prayer week. I have had some really rough roads...reminding me all about FAITH, FORGIVENESS, TRUST, LOVE, PRAISE----in ALL circumstances.

When you fear your daughter is MIA by your ex---tears flow like no tomorrow. Illness I have kicks in harder than it is daily with extra stress...more seizures hit. But do I shake my fist in anger? Do I hold it against Jesus? NO. I have seen His true beauty...His reasons in EVERYTHING that has hit my life personally. I pray BIG TIME. Am I perfect? Oh so far from it. Only Christ is! You can ask my dear friend Pat B...as I vent to his amazing soul thru it all...how I do feel at the time it all hits. I throw on some anger music--in all honesty to help get it out of me. But our AMAZING LORD works thru EVERYTHING. And captures me in every verse--to love thy enemies. Pray for them. Faith, Hope and Love...greatest of these is LOVE. Love--for everyone is so important thru our Savior...LOVE FOR HIM IS THE MOST IMPORTANT. He saved us on Calvary...AMEN...yesterday, today...saves us tomorrow...always loves US.

Christ watches over us every moment every second. He never forgets a moment of your life...I am so grateful...as for I try to reach out and pray for so many...but I am not God. I cannot be all places like Jesus---and that IS TRULY AMAZING.

My home church I attend--first one--and one I found Christ--has, as many know from my flooding prayers--a precious 5 yr old child-Kate McRae- that just went thru intense brain surgery yesterday. My faith, personally is very strong there...no, I have never had cancer--but I can't name off all my illnesses. Starting with brain surgery twice...opened 4 times...getting ready for a 3rd brain surgery (6 openings) for epilepsy. My precious daughter has it too. So when this all came up-I fled to our church for our amazing prayer and discussion there. And, me of all people was the first one bawling. Not out of fear--yes, I wish I could take it from this precious girl--but I also know HOW AMAZING CHRIST IS THRU PRAYER!! He is always amazing...but I can truly compare one surgery-when not into Him...and the other COMPLETELY INTO HIM...huge difference. WHAT A MIGHTY GOD!!! He holds us in the palm of His hands--complete comfort! So if anyone wishes to call me the prayer-aholic...feel free...I take it with Grace and Joy with my Savior!

I am one very transparent soul. One thing I refuse to change.

Revelation 4:11 "You are worthy, O Lord our God, to receive glory, and honor and power. For You created EVERYTHING, and it is for Your pleasure that they exist and and were created."

Revelation 22:13 "I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End."

He--thru everything deserves all our glory, honor praise...as for He created us with such amazing plans--as we seek Him--grow closer, cling tight--they unfold more and more!! And I am so thankful that I ever found Him! We are all beautiful/handsome thru Him inside (important!) and out!

We ALL have such struggles...seek Him. Be sure to pray. Be sure to have others pray for you. If you feel you need any help...seek that...He is beside you thru it all---this I truly know---as His hands hold us so tight! Go to your churches counselor or Pastor-friends in the church. Knock on my twitter door for some prayer---PLEASE. I truly feel it is a gift He does give me--to reach out to others in prayer. Please connect with @worldprayr for postings of prayer there too! God is SO AMAZING...no prayer is too minor...too small. He gives us all....only what we can handle--AMEN.

Psalm 34:4,6 I prayed to the LORD, and He answerd me, freeing me from all my fears.

I cried out to the LORD in my suffering, and He heard me. He set me free from all my fears.

We are FREE....of fear thru HIM....FREE as an AMAZING COUNTRY-AMERICA'S Birthday of FREEDOM TODAY!!! All thru Christ!! Are you ready to be free??? Let it all go....give it all to Him...talk with Pastors, believers in Christ....dig in His Word with prayer...and He WILL SET YOU FREE!! John 8:32 "And you will know the Truth, and the Truth will SET YOU FREE."

Give it all to Christ....if you haven't asked Him into your life...do so TODAY...this day of freedom...ask Him simply...."I am clueless. I am a sinner.(WE ALL ARE) I haven't been living my life the way I should nor I want...I have this void that still has to be filled...nothing else fills it...Jesus--come into my life-forgive me...fill my void...guide me...mold me...clean my slate of sins-walk me down the road YOU have had planned for me. I love You. In Jesus Name...Amen."

I love you all so dearly...I am so blessed. I truly thank God everyday for all I've gone thru to find Him...for my amazing family....for the strength only HE gives me in all my weakness. I praise Him for it all. I truly thank Him for you all!

In His Amazing Love,

Heather Siebens





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