I see so clearly now His working in my life, and even thru me. How He touched many souls thru my suffering, pain, suffering. How He changed mine for His Good thru it all. Even when I was suffering and abused-it all drew me to find Him, love Him thru it all. I never turned my thoughts of His Truth-Only His-even when not saved. I was approached by so many of a few cults is my early years-yet had no part of me to wonder about any of their stories. I knew somewhere deep inside me, that He is the Only Way. Even when in deep denial - severe suffering- I still had this part of my heart that was pre-wired and saved to love Jesus, to save my eternal suffering.
He has radically changed my life. In faith and love. In my gift of openness came transparency of His Truth. The way He knew me and my plans in life while in my mother's womb. In every word of my denial came His Promise to me. I never knew before Him how little I was really in control of life. When first presented to Him came out my duplication almost of Saul-who later was talked to about why Saul was born... was for His Glory, and not Saul's selfishness and denial- He was born to change lives as Paul. He had the most radical change I could imagine. I am blessed He was willing to radically change me too-also for His Glory. I was able to see past my suffering, look beyond tragedy and know His plans are real and for ever lasting love-love beyond my comprehension.
So I may not comprehend all His purposes. but I know He has radical purposes; that even thru little me can change lives even outside of my own life. In fact, Christ has us all here for His Glory-and before others, thru everything. To make change in people's lives that we try to help guide and change; yet to be amazed at whose lives we change or impact thru Him, without knowledge of attempting to. Just living with the Holy Spirit wrapped around us to keep praising Him thru everything, and around everyone-without embarrassment of His Truth and how it affects our lives. We praise Him when well, or unwell. We raise our hands in true whole-hearted praise and worship-knowing He came to save and conquer-will return with that promise we share; and turn away from evil that makes us doubt. To accept blessings while sharing more than return blessings thru Him. To know His truth is real and never-ending.
My brain may be afflicted-challenge to have historical true words about His Truth; but a heart that can share His heart that loves us all without question. I am in awe how He was deep in my soul all my life-even all the years I knew nothing about Him. How He twists our deep denial into deep love for and thru Him.
He has walked with me my whole life-He is everlasting. He is our One True God who continues to change lives. I can see how changed I am thru Him in my walk. I am blessed to be able to bless others thru His Word. I am forever gracious... His mercy and grace is amazing-His Truth is such a life changing experience- I will forever be amazed. I will challenge myself daily to seek Him more-to reach out to others, to pray for others first-and to love Him and others more of myself and material things.
Forever so thankful for such changes forevermore, all for His Glory, Honor and Praise. I will continue to walk with YOU Jesus...
Bless you all.... share your story of How He changed you-- I will be just amazed more!!
In His Grip,
But we are citizens of Heaven, where the Lord Jesus Christ lives. And we are eagerly waiting for Him to return as our Savior. He will take our weak mortal bodies and change them into glorious bodies like His own, using the same power with which He will bring everything under His control.
December usually is looked at as a very blessed month full of love, cheer, gifts, laughter, most of all; the Birth of Our One and Only Savior...Jesus Christ. The beauty of fresh snow in some places is exciting, cooler weather for AZ is a blessed miracle. Families having special, kind, time together in family is a true gift.
I am one odd one that has a birthday in December...ten days before Christ's birth-yet never found Him, or accepted Him until I was 26.... A decade ago! So the true meaning of Christmas is now in my heart, not just the gift giving in my brain.
I have a very big positive I pray about everyday; my pain has subsided most all the time, seizures controlled, out living life again. But that was a long long 12 years. But worth each form of agony: I found my Lord and Savior who was there thru my whole life, married the man of my life He blessed me with after such abusive chaos with my ex. All in perfect time for our kid Tory, to see and accept Christian as her real dad. A work of God.
Decembers can be very busy, very stressful with all that has to be accomplished, and time you have to be at Christmas events in jam packed traffic. Some drivers just think about all to do, what's been done, that taking an illegal turn on freeways happen too often this month. Elders who are loved ones become more depressed because they don't have that same ability to celebrate and decorate nearly as much as they did. Has a tendency to invite certain illnesses their way ...even though they are truly loved as much as ever. It is just hard to not present or enjoy it as before.
Today was my 36th birthday. Two months I've been pain free. Now THAT is a celebration.
But then I recall back in Dec 16, 2009, I lost a very precious friend from this earth. No longer get to visit him weekly for hours of amazing in depth conversation. Jason Mitchner had so many gifts from God-overseeing his obstacles. He inspired me...and still does. I talk to Him in beautiful Heaven when I need to hear or feel from him. I was blessed with such a touching relationship. He kept faith alive. Wrote music and devotionals. Straightened me out about the more time we are here on earth-the more we could bring to Christ. Amazing!!! He always talked about the date of my birthday... so I know he hung on for that. I went up the 17th with a Christmas gift-an ornament so beautiful-I had one to light up too and match--then news was coming out. He was no longer in his room he was in for years. No one legally could tell me what went on-but the nurse I knew well. So in my tears, she stood outside waiting for me to be able to tell me. I cried, I hugged her-and gave her his gift in love. What a friend he is.
Now..I am thrilled that my inspiring friend hears and comforts me... Along with other angels, and foremost Christ.
Which I therefore thank Jesus for having family members tell me what went on with my cousin in law. I never met her. This was going to be the way to meet her. In ICU, barely out of coma. Not long after... She was moved to an inpatient physical/occupational/speech therapy location. I've been so blessed to grow closer to her as a friend, cousin, one with medical similarities. I am gracious to God He had His hand on me tight thru struggles when I was a non believer....but God has His plans and timing. Same for Jason-with all he did to share His word while suffering greatly-Jesus called for Him. Now he is dancing-no longer paralyzed. And I watch how He is touching hearts and changing souls thru dear Kim. Gifts she gives us before, during and after. When healed, I see her making it to the aftermath and touching lives known, and unknown!
Kim has made amazing progress that has gripped my heart tight. I thank God for being with her thru it all...and never letting go! With Kim, I couldn't see one soul let go of a miracle lady such as herself. Her family is amazing and full of blessings and love thru their dear mom, and dear dad. This is when you see how important family ties are.
Both Kim and Christians grandma Oachs (who is my grandma to me also) went thru the fearful look of a stroke, or perhaps small type of stroke that I had in September. We were almost exact in what we went thru. But it only took grandma 24 hours to regain knowledge, and most words. Will probably go to an in patient place to make sure everything is completely in tact and healing. Praise God....such a wonderful woman I love!
I sure pray for my Grandma Jensen's health to get better, not let depression have her exit. I'll visit this week to see progress.
I praise God for hearing our cries for Kim-placing her on the road to healing. Thanking all who show up to root her on! She is so positive... My heart loves her so dearly. Thanking her family to let me be part of the support team, full of love, even though I was the "lost" in-law. I was lost....thru Jesus and Kim, I'm now found!
Thank You dear Jesus for all these precious souls in my life. Praying strength in family members. I love you all....
I miss you Jason...but know how blessed you are...we will always talk til we see one another in Heaven!
Love to all, all healthy, all suffering....God hears all cries!
In His Grip,
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Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Isaiah 40: 28-31 Have you never heard?
Have you never understood?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of all the earth.
He never grows weak or weary.
No one can measure the depths of his understanding.
He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint.
Praise God, who did not ignore my prayer or withdraw his unfailing love from me.
But God did listen! He paid attention to my prayer.