Life sure can get complex,

if you just let it so.

With every wilting flower,

a healthy one will grow.

It started out so simple

just one pill led to two;

but with age seizures angered

and I didn't know what to do.

They changed so fiercely overnight,

I dared not to tell a soul.

I just played pretend they didn't exist;

prayed I wouldn't pay a toll.

Then, with a gift from God came happiness,

everything felt just right!

Then came a twist, a jab, of hopelessness!

It's now hard to sleep at night.

For what was managed then, grew and grew.

Not one in that town could believe -

that the dilemmas with me are for real, are true.

So with all of that - my child and I had to leave.

What may have seemed atrocious

what may have seemed unjust;

all happened for a purpose

this happened, now I must

I must be honest

I must be well

I must be focused

Dear God I'll tell . . .

I'll tell You how shocking life can be!

I'll tell you I'm tired, no energy!

Seizures aren't controlled by medication for me;

They're controlled by the faith in our Lord, I NOW see!

Faith in Christ is the actual cure;

even when I must take pills.

Cause with all my problems and issues I endure;

with His love there's no trial, mountain, no hills!

So I praise Him today with all my heart,

my heart has so much to give!

Without Him I'm not sure where I'd be

He's shown me all more reason to live!


True Love thru Christ

by Christian Siebens @flyingchristian

He wrote this-a slip in of amazing words in the handout for our wedding.

Here it is:

We have all heard 1 Corinthians 1-13., but do we truly understand what it means? This passage gives the most complete description of love in the Bible. It sows us that love needs to be the one thing in life we seek more than anything else. For without it, whatever we do or say really has no lasting value. Compare the love described in the Bible with superficial love found in this world.

God says love should be directed towards others...
The world says love should be directed toward ourselves

God says love is patient love is kind...
The world says love satisfies your immediate needs

God says love is never jealous or envious...
The world says love isn't necessary to make people respect you

God says love is never rude...
The world says love lets you act as you please

God says love does not demand its own way...
The world says love gets in the way of what is in it for me

God says love is not irritable and holds no grudges...
The world says love takes a backseat when it comes to taking revenge

God says love rejoices in truth...
The world says love doesn't understand or ignores evil

God says love is loyal...
The world says love should be self serving

God's TRUE LOVE is a natural outflow of His presence in our lives. Seek Him. He will strengthen you and give you true peace. If we do this our relationship with Him and with each other will never be the same again!

The most important piece of clothing you MUST wear is love. Love is what binds us together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes only from Christ rule your hearts.

Colossians 3:14-15

It is our prayer as we begin our life together that God's love abides in us all and flows throughout our lives.

We love you,
Christian and Heather


God WILL see you thru EVERYTHING

We have all been thru SOOOO much....
but do you know that HE IS RIGHT THERE-the whole time for you? Great portions of my friends do...but when I hit rock bottom, near death-I had very little clue.

We still have so much to live for-even on these painful....tragic days-that we sit and ask Jesus WHY??? But He has reasons for everything-and as you pull tight to Him...and not run off with another crowd in doubt-His amazing plans WILL BEGIN TO UNFOLD. Granted...they aren't always what we were praying for, as for He knows what is absolutely best for us-will not hurt nor forsake us. This I truly know after doubting and running away from Him for years...til it all came down to SINK OR SWIM OR JUST COME TO ME!!!! And I very much-on deaths door-totally gave Him my everything....

Has everything been perfect...no-as for nothing is except Him. And He is working thru us to be more like Him. And He sure gets better every year with me-taming me...with every issue I've had to face-I hold His hand tight!! He never let's go.

I have friends that are so distant-and their lives feel so out of control. Mine may have a health battle-but I have so much love and stability from so many-that the moment I ever let go of Him..that would be gone. He completely yokes us with amazing souls who have awesome faith in Him-to help us each grow-knowing none of us are alone-and success thru Him is such a powerful ability. All you need is to follow Him, love Him, share Him, lean on Him....walk His walk...and He has many successful plans in all different ways for each of us.

I've been able to use my epilepsy as a positive-and help so many with it and other conditions...reach out to Him-some knew Him..some didn't. Help them grow-knowing He will use it all for His glory. My husband and brother are wise souls in this business world that are teaming up, with others of different faith, in love, and still sharing His Word while working so hard! I commend them!! Just amazing!!

Have a friend that went thru alcoholism...lives at our church for our program there-and AA and also married to one (mind you, who also just went thru brain surgery for epilepsy-whooo!!) also goes to Al-anon meetings. AMAZING LADY! God guided us together thru one of my closest friends who has helped me grow with our Lord over the years. She stepped up to her after service for prayer for her husbands brain surgery-mind you-who she stepped up to was there for my whole 2nd brain surgery. So she asked if she could share her number with me-ran me down that service-and since then-we have been also growing together thru the Lord. Amazing how He works!! Even in hard times-you totally see the light!

My friend Jason Mitchener-I can't lay out the medical story-go to his site to see-but know how on fire he is for our awesome God....EVERY TIME I SEE HIM IN PERSON!! He has a heart filled with Jesus' love-no matter the circumstance-I love to visit him-he has truly touched my life. visit http://www.jasonmitchener.com go to his biography.

You all are such inspirations thru Jesus to me...and I truly thank Him for you all.

I placed that poll next to this just to see where the struggles are...I have had so many-and praise Jesus starting with my ex beating me-that I ran to find Him. Even when we know Him we struggle...always feel free to twitter me prayers!! He very much hears us...ALL THE TIME!

God Bless You ALL!

In His Grip,


Philippians 1:21-22 For to me, living is for Christ, and dying is even better. Yet if I live, that means fruitful service for Christ. I really don't know which is better.

Philippians 3:13-14 No Dear Brothers and Sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing;Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead. I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, thru Christ Jesus, is calling us up to Heaven.

1 Peter 3:14 But even if you suffer for doing what is right, God will reward you for it. So don't be afraid and don't worry.

Ps-Picture of my brother Troy-on the left-and my hubby Christian on the right. ;)


If Today Was YOUR Last Day???

If today was your last day & tomorrow was too late-could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past? Donate every dime you had? Would you call those friends you've never seen? Reminisce old memories? Would you forgive your enemies? ~Nickelback

We never know what tomorrow holds...which is why we are to live in Christ's light...loving all-at all times...even in tough circumstances...knowing HE WILL SEE US THRU.

Have I always? Do I always? No. But thru all circumstances I have been thru...not sure if tomorrow truly would come-but Christ had plans for me...and kept me...I do my all in all to always love all..forgive those who hurt me...love them...ask for forgiveness-show all how much they impact my life...in all different areas of life. My friends thru Jesus-who share faith-help me keep my faith...and my focus on Him...growing spiritually. My doctors-who Jesus guided me to-help me fight for wellness...and a way to live for Him in an eager manner. I thank my neurologist so much for somehow hearing Jesus talk to him...giving him such patience thru seizures, overdosing, surgeries...and more to come...I've had doctor's wipe their hands...he doesn't. My AMAZING family-my parents...not into Jesus...but I JUST RECEIVED AN E-MAIL LAST NIGHT from my DAD on Jesus-is "He truly God?" I was so thrilled not only cause he was reading that...but he was sharing the fact he was reading it WITH ME. Takes a lot of pride to be knocked down to do that. My daughter who is an amazing reason I went searching for Jesus. She has a heart of gold like Him...I thank Him every day for her...as for I wouldn't have searched for Him without her. My AMAZING husband...Christian...many of you know...who loves-in all circumstances. All I pulled, went thru, am going thru....he still loves me. And he saw me in the days when I'd be driving-blasted out of my mind on Phenobarbital-numbing pain-trying to find Jesus. He is one to give many thanks to thru Christ...as for why I was determined to get well. And with my seizures-still am. And my ex husband...we went thru so much hard times-adultery, domestic violence just after my first brain surgery-but Jesus gave us amazing time-to muddle thru it-yes, divorce-but before that ever came-He made sure we would forgive each other-not just for Him, for us, but for our child's sake.

And Jesus...with all I put HIM thru...before I searched for Him...back when I rejected Him...He saved me so many times...but when on the bed in the ER...not sure IF I'd wake-after stomach pumping..He WOKE ME UP. Not just from coma...but from being dead to this world-needing His bread of life, not pills...and HE SAVED ME.

These are a few reasons why...in all times-I try to pour out as much love as Christ pours out-which will never happen...but even a brink of it feels so amazing. Life isn't about money, jobs, houses, fame, popularity-it is about LOVE and what you can do with your love thru Christ-for others.

Simple to say...I love you all...am so blessed...and if I am not here tomorrow...want you all to know that..we never know. If I am unable to type after my 3rd brain surgery-remember-I'd still be typing prayers and love to you all...thru Jesus!

God bless you all...and I truly THANK YOU ALL for YOUR AMAZING LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP...when I pour tears of joy...you've done God's work!



Colossians 3:14 And the most important piece of clothing you must wear is LOVE. LOVE is what binds us all together in PERFECT HARMONY.