2/20/11

Love that is True-

My Precious One

Making it thru---that I am. But it isn't on my own, or with doctors, etc... of course it is with Jesus-whom gave me two big gifts--my husband Christian, and my precious daughter Tory. Tory may only be going on 10-- but because of all of what I have gone thru, she has matured way too fast-especially in the medical field... how people are feeling. She really knows how to show support, her heart and love--and show hope thru Christ seeing all that He has carried her Mom thru. 
She was born a very "safe" child. In all ways. She knew not to run up to me on my first day back from my first brain surgery with my head wrapped-and jump into my arms. (PRAISE GOD) She just gently walked up to me, wrapping her tiny 1 yr old arms around my legs. Brilliant!! Nothing changed except she had come to know Jesus Christ BIG TIME for my 2nd and 3rd brain surgeries. And all my hospitalizations in between. She would share her faith. I sadly missed out on most of it---being the one in the hospital. But I sure heard the beautiful stories that amazed me--bringing tears to my eyes while I was at Mayo each time. 
My Tory always has such a beautiful personality--one that is full of love for Christ- full of endless love for me, and people surrounding me who suffer. Anyone in a bind, having tough times my kiddo has such a heart for--and doesn't understand why people treat a person so bad. So she is like the school "studier" of the shouldered children. And she seems to confront them--and easily make friends after a days work. Then she is really baffled at how people can just hate at looks or first day attitude meeting--could have just been a bad day or shy. She blows me out of the water. I was NOT that way as a child-yet I had NO idea whom Jesus Christ was. I just knew I was the "cool" kid--and I had my priorities--if ya looked a bit dorky, you weren't part of the "cool" crowd--simple. No sad. And my daughter, never having heard that story--already had a molded heart for Jesus-for love for people of all types-that makes mine beat triple times in praise to Jesus!!! That was the part of me I would have changed as a child growing up. And He must have known that--and did that with my beautiful child. I thank Him for His amazing work. Never did I imagine such a perfect daughter in my life.
We may have an "imperfect" set up to others. Christian is her dad-not my blood, but by love and soon adoption! As for the "biological" one beat me when she was young--and only tried her out long distance for a while--then his new wife and money supporting my kiddo became selfishly important---that is human--not me, but human. So he signed this precious child he barely knew into the strong arms of my husband today--Christian Siebens. And I praise Jesus for that. It was sure during times of trials--making sure I'd still keep my tight grip on HIM---but it came thru. And now she says she has 2 Dads----Jesus and her daddy---Christian. That is the lifetime gift for me. To fill the void--one that could have been empty, and confusing for years--filled right away by the love of my life. We thank God for a mutual friend who introduced us, John Stauffer--had he not--we never would have crossed paths. Amazing how HE works thru others for our good!! His Glory!! 
And my little Tory, as she grows will have a lifetime story of love and laughter-in a family that never quits, never gives up during any huge medical extreme, job decline to job inclines with lengthy moves. We hold tight thru all family issues-knowing we stand firmly in Christ's focus-His Way, His Truth, His Light in life---and we don't let others against Him shake us. For He is the one who painted this beautiful portrait of our family and got us going on His Plans... (as we all altar at times)  But we will love all--show His light and grace---but share His love and truth--as for our lives are completely changed for good--and for the good!!! And we praise Him.
Smiling Christ-Follower/daughter
The amazing part is---we have this little girl who has lifted her hands to HIM since she was 3... speaking out loud about how "Jesus died for us on the Cross" since she was 2---and she just gets more lively as she matures!!!! With that I say...
"Thank you Jesus---You do all things Good!!! To God be all the Glory for all the Good in our lives!!!! YOU keep us satisfied!!! "

Keeping my focus on Him--keeps my pain at bay... Keeping my love alive for Him... keeps my pain lessoned. Keeping my focus and love alive for my family and friends--makes life alive and in need to quench more for my thirst for Christ---in thanks for such blessings!!! With Him---I am alive!!! Always-thru everything. With you all--my heart grows bigger for more love for all you, more of His people---and always our God more!
I give my heart to Christ--Christian and precious Tory at the top of my list- whom I'd die for. But my list continues so long in family and friends that are like family that I just praise Him!! So I praise God right now for whomever is reading this---He placed something special in your heart that my heart thanks you for!!!
Know thru Christ-all things ARE possible. If my little girl believes this-do not waver as an adult!! Trust our Father in ever step you take-and pray about. He has amazing plans for you!!! 
Love to you all---always!!
Heather  @AliveinMe










ALWAYS:...
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18  REJOICE ALWAYS!! Pray Continually, give THANKS IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES--for THIS IS God's Will for YOU in Christ Jesus!!!!  (AMEN!)
Every Family Movement from Hetty Siebens on Vimeo.For all my precious friends........ most of all, my daughter Tory Moriah Siebens, hubby Christian Siebens---who both hold me up thru everything..

The amazement is--how Tory could even at 1--her faith became so strong at 2--and rocks today!! I am just so blessed!!!

Love you all!!
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2/1/11

Severe Pain Brings Blessings

Third Brain Surgery Beginning-deep electrodes
How awesome is our God? How Mighty and Strong thru all of our trials-knowing each step we have to take--and yet to come...
We sit and groan thinking it is the worst pain or issue ever-when in fact, give it time--He will prove your strength-only thru your trust and faith in Him, as you hang on to even more rougher roads to come--you never thought YOU could handle.
I am one very fortunate person. He blessed me with not faith as a child or young adult, just fearlessness. Trust in parents. That later when I found Him at 26--became a HUGE understanding of Faith and His hands tight on me---even when I didn't know it.
I am one very blessed lady to have found Him in timing for 3 brain surgeries--for me to pray years upon them.... thru them, and the seizures and testing between the years of each of them--trying to seek His purpose behind the continuance. Today was my one year anniversary of the beginning of my 3rd brain surgery---that led to so much. It was miraculous. So many praying from East to West on twitter and FB--people I knew closely, others not. But I am a very open person about all my testimonies---praying to reach out to at least one lost person to come to Christ---then as many as Jesus blesses to. My mouth will talk all about my walk. And this 3rd surgery had so many positives that I dance up a storm about it. But not long after, it also had a huge crash--so there were tons of AMENS....then came a billion tears.

On the first of February---as the date is today, now a year ago--they first placed the in depth electrodes deep in my brain to read all seizure activity all over-to see how much to cut, where, what parts can't be taken out due to verbal, eyesight, etc. And they did testing with those deep in my brain for days-checking to see how it changes. It just was amazing. The pain let up a bit on the 2nd night-so the 3rd morning I was there-I was able to move more, talk, etc. So I broke out my lap top for the next nine nights leading up to my 3rd brain surgery to come----which the most radical part of this brain surgery out of all 3 was this one was done AWAKE!!!! So I could assist the docs in what was being affected!!!! Was so awesome--bit painful last 20 minutes....but every ache was worth that ability to tell them where to go-so you aren't blind. It's being part doctor!!!! Was fabulous thru our Lord to have that happen for me!!

I had such close connections thru phone, text, gifts, in person, internet--etc....prayer warriors!!! Christ made this surgery almost pain free!!! Afterward you usually pound for weeks--I did not. I smiled big thru the working of our Lord.
Now not everything lasts the way we want it to-so we sure are to take in those great moments and treasure them! As for I had a whole whirlwind ahead---pain-ALL OVER my body began when I began functioning-about 2 weeks of wellness then the body severely crashed for almost a year now.
For the most part, I am seizure free. Unless my medication is increased for the brain to control the sensing of pain. Then I have a few doozies. If I wasn't on that though-that surgery was a miracle--very seizure free otherwise.
I had time during the pain of the body after surgery---that I grew so bitter. No answers. I was mad!! And thought God just had it in for me. But after a month or so just offline--doing projects--I felt Him with His arms around me--assure me in saying--That there is much more to come--it wasn't all about me, the pain and suffering--to get my eyes off that and back onto Him, family, friends I love. And once I did---pain calmed--with me able to walk more!!!! Making gifts for others. Sharing fun times with friends near and far. He made a lot of good come out of pain---and with that--the pain sure has eased---as I focus on Him, and dear friends instead.
That February was an amazing time of my life. Changed it for the better. And this February is thanking all there last for joining in prayer---it has carried on throughout the year!!!!!!! God bless you all for seeing me thru this---I may have quite a bit less brain, but enough to know our Lord and Savior is so True and amazing---and how blessed I am with each of you as family and friends that carried me thru!!

God bless you all....today-tomorrow-----forever!!

In His Love,

Heather J Siebens

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Psalm 115:1
Not to us, O Lord, not to us,
but to your name goes all the glory
for your unfailing love and faithfulness.

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