2/11/10

So MUCH LOVE

We all have so many gifts. Not the "beauty from this picture!" And not talking about Birthday, Christmas, the upcoming Love Card and gift day... when in reality, that should be every day---but we all have personal gifts, God gives to us.
Many of you may be sitting there thinking: what the heck is mine? I drive fast.. I have good hair.. I know how to do my make-up... my clothes are the finest... I raised all my children correctly... I make enough money for all... and so on and so on... and these gifts, are they really enough? Enough for you? For you to keep growing-to even find MORE gifts? Satisfied with one time shot of "good" or making ends meet perfect? Does being "uncomfortable" get you... YOU not feeling "gifted." To be outside of what YOU felt as YOUR gift..?
I have grown quickly to learn so much about Jesus, His absolute truth in 7 yrs... I started searching for Him-first REAL time February 9th-at 6pm... at http://www.cschandler.com  (Cornerstone Christian Fellowship) It is NOT an overnight learning. And it all isn't from reading the Bible like a BOOK... honestly, just isn't the way to read it... He talks to us thru where WE are called to open as we pray before opening. Now for any who have never opened it... that is my advice in the New Testament, not to read straight... but go where He leads. Not where people tell you- WHERE HE TELLS YOU... and He will.
When I did that... going thru such hard times, I finally after going to this church, some Sundays just ripped out of my mind, on large overdoses of Phenobarbital--to numb the pain of my ex beating me. That wasn't the ANSWER...nor did it get in the way of the Holy Spirit busting right thru my blasted brain...to talk to ME. ME!!! Was I really that special-to be directly guided, hugged, comforted, allowed to cry out loud-- all because of Him wrapping His love around me... opening my burnt brain to understand where Pastor Linn was leading with His Word? Yes. As are you!! As for He knew us all before we came to this earth... with awesome plans- that we- until, and still during our walk with Him, can really throw out of loop-from His originated way.. we usually, as humans-take it OUR way. But when you get in a crunch, you realize the word surrender so much better when presented it, clueless, and living a "perfect life" in our lives.. then "imperfectness" is allowed in... and we lose control... it is a true gift-HE IS THERE --- WITH LOVE and TRUTH-- The whole way!! Hands wide open... TRUE LOVE! And when we begin to open our heart and mind to Him... He is able to reach more deep into our lives... and mold us, as we keep walking with Him, clinging to Him... until amazing faith hits a home-run!! Then He is ready, even more, for us to lose that "comfortable feeling" and head forth to feed others His truth. Not like we won't have troubles... but our Spiritual walk, so much tighter with Him... that He is ready to place the step of strength-of battling others of non-belief, in LOVE, (as I was) to many... !!! Some may be starting with a neighbor, stranger in the mall, someone crying at church..a work partner or employer...smaller steps-that are BIG... but amazing ones. 
And THEN even more comes forward... we really have to learn to pray for everything, in HIS WILL. And you will see where He has planned for you. And with all of this... learning, growing, sharing, learning, growing, sharing.... all for Him, in all circumstances... He is smiling BIG knowing you are beginning to gleam more and more brightly for HIM and THRU HIM... and these feelings are amazing.
I have seen amazing doors opened thru my illnesses... and HUGE ones during my wellness. Either way, our life was given to us, thru His love and grace-FROM HIM... we are to use it FOR HIM. But sometimes that darn wrapped up comfortable life.. gets in the way!! 
We then have to slide "comfortability" aside. What family or friends think... how it has people slandering... if your call is missionary.. learn to give up everything FOR HIM. When sick... realize what prayer to Him does-- HE IS MEDICINE... created amazing docs... but half our issues fly away when our whole life is wrapped around HIM! We can share our testimonies in the hospital... they can hear our music... they can see our light thru illness, thru Him. Our loved ones coming to visit us at the hospital- can see a patients wife crying-- be like my daughter at 7--just stop her and ask "Do you know Jesus loves you?" And it isn't tears of sadness, it is tears of what if's? "What if my husband, who is about to die doesn't know Him... where will he go... and watch her turn back around to re-talk to her husband on deaths door. And even if he did pass away.. he had the way to find HIS WAY! And now so does she!! (He does cure people last minute as well...) All from a few simple words from an 8 yr old... I think we as adults who have learned so much-- either should be, as the Bible says "more child-like" -not scared to say it, the way it is from our mouths... or we have to sure learn to do it in an amazing "kind and gentle" adult way... either which way- it is an amazing hand out of Truth and LOVE to others- to share the True Good News about Jesus Christ.. reason for life-- and every holiday we love... and the One we should focus on for Valentines even more. He is LOVE.
I am so grateful to Him, forever and ever for all my re-saves, coddling me, helping me grow thru trials.. to be who I am now-- and can be even more to come for Him!! I lived in a dark life... not even realizing it.. and He shared His Love and truth, mercy and grace-thru it all-and NOW I can see from then, and now!! He always has so much in store for us all, in hard times, and great times-so gentle, really. Every time we just thank & Praise Him, knowing He has nothing but good in store- even thru the storms as we clench to HIM!!
And thru HIM I love YOU ALL soooo much... AND TO HIM---I AM SO THANKFUL FOR EVERY TRIAL-- HAS HELPED ME GROW NOTHING BUT ALL FOR HIM, EVERY STEP--AS MY 3RD BRAIN SURGERY IS FINALLY SCHEDULED FOR THIS FRIDAY, FEB 12TH!!! PRAISE HIM!


Never regret your life-- He has amazing plans!!


In His Love and Grace,
Heather Siebens  @AliveinMe @EpilepsyCures


Romans 15:13 So I pray that God, who gives you hope, will keep you happy and full of peace as you believe in Him. may you overflow with hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.
Ephesians 2:4 But God is so rich in mercy, and He
loved us so very much, that even while we were dead because of our sins, He gave us life when He raised Christ from the dead.

3 comments:

ktdoglover4HIM (Katie) said...

Hetty thank you for this awesome blog. Yet another inspiring blog. Praise God for Friday being the big day for you. I will be praying then Praising God when you come out. Love you my friend. Hugs

Evening Star said...

....truly humbled :*)

Thanks for this post.

Anonymous said...

www.jesustruth.wordpress.com - I Know and Im humbled, blessed to read your love for Jesus. I have said for years that He know before and he weeps when he see us fall (most of the time because we're not following him) . I agree with you you can't just read the Bible, you must PRAY, READ, WAIT and most of all SURRENDER all! My life has been full of the valleys and mountain tops and all the while HE is with me. I finally decided to RUN full ahead toward Jesus 7 years ago and my life has changed forever!!! I Love You! Your Sister In CHRIST! Laurie