Hanging On Jesus
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
I have been blessed to have gone thru so much in my mid 20's, that all shook me finally enough to find the Truth. John 14:6 Jesus told him, "I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one can come to the Father except thru Me!" The reason I am here-and STILL am with all I went thru, and then put myself thru. He works miracles for the moment we show Him humbleness, hope, a gleam of wonder if it is really HIM. Cause the moments you show more wonders, are the moments He has been grabbing your heart more.
It took many years of first me being introduced to who He is late in life, then tragically going thru so much (many blogs on that in here..) but the amazing part is the moment you lift your eyes-open your heart to Him, and allow your faith to endure thru everything you go thru-with HIM-the whole way He already has amazing plans for you. You just have to use that faith part for it to happen. For His amazing plans to endure. And as you open your heart more and more to everything tough that happens in life, knowing just to trust Him-have faith, He will help you run thru this trial with those amazing plans ahead. But if we stay angry, or bitter, or far away from God's love and faithfulness thru everything-then we won't get to see His-HIS next step in everything yet. Not until we are ready to invite Him back in.
I went thru my pouty stage. My why God stage. My-THIS CAN'T BE stage.... but I was refocused by so many-starting with my amazing brother whom swears I was the one who recently brought Him to Jesus. That grabbed me big. As I have prayed for years. Now we are so close-we are 2 peas in a pod.
Then I just have amazing family, neurologist, docs--and two very amazing ones that held my hand tight thru this was my psychiatrist for over 7 years at Mayo Clinic-- Dr. Cynthia Stonnington. Has such a grabbing heart and attitude about how you will succeed getting thru this illness. Then knowing I moved, she knew I'd be going thru a few years of pain with what is called severe Fibromyalgia- and she already has an amazing psychiatrist set up for me to call this week in Philly to make an appointment-stay focused on wellness. I was amazed at all she has to do, at what time she had before I entered her office. Always such a heart filled with joy. In addition was my brilliant psychologist Dr.Seri Roth-Roemer. She is such an amazing doctor full of life, laughter, faith-and with the focus she guides you with, just in days you begin to feel better and be better for others. But you have to have the right focus for yourself. She knows how to learn about you to find the right focus! Amazing what the brain controls. She is full of amazing gifts-one I'd love to take after if one day I am well enough to get back to school. But all my docs keep getting me thru it. All the tests galore-trying to see what is causing the severe pain-right after I healed from my #rd brain surgery, done AWAKE! Just one more test to be done. Otherwise, the low down is I have quite the case of fibromyalgia or it was caused from my brain surgery. Actually nicking a part that deals with pain. Cutting into vessels then going into the "Hot Spots" where seizures were recorded. My neurosurgeon would have me read, tell colors, keep talking etc while telling him any odd things happening while marking areas that aren't "affecting" me yet-to take out. Looking back, I kept my focus more on eyes that were gonna go if we took the whole "Hot Spot" out, so just some was taken from that and I have lack of periphreal vision. But one thing that I didn't think twice about was pain in my body, and temperture raising, and prickles. But all that can come from the medication they gave me to try to help the pain, while awake, and when it wore off, my brain was stressing overload for the pain on the brain surgery and body. It attacks the brain and where it sends its signals, for everything. Which leads to severe pain. Signals that stop pain get triggered and the body, unharmed is in severe attacks, severe pains all over-not knowing how it is supposed to make that pain go away.The signals are drastic-it is even hard to hug I hurt so bad. So I pray with this 4th brain surgery (cutting the brain in half-corpus callosum ) and medication, some knowledge of it now-I will heal quicker than how I was making it worse with such a negative attitude, laying around in severe pain-waiting for it to go away. God has different plans.So I have to take this plan and run with it.... He his worth all steps.
Blessings to all thru Jesus!
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