Jesus-Thank YOU!

Hebrews 6:10 He will not forget your work and the love you have shown Him as you have helped His people and continue to help them.

This was a thank you note I have to share with you all-that brought me to tears back in 2005. I was totally on fire for Jesus in my walk-growing stronger in my faith thru Him-and my illness-epilepsy wasn't holding me back. This all occurred about a month after my 2nd brain surgery-I found that a Pastor I knew well-trying to get me to accept Jesus Christ back in the 90's-his wife had stage 4 cancer-spreading. I didn't know what else to do-other than cry-pray...and my heart poured out. I sent her the cross I wore thru every hard battle that I faced-that helped bring me to Jesus. My 1st brain surgery, my ex beating me, drug overdosing to numb pain, seizures inclining due to change of meds...I was a baby Christian about 9 months after I bought that cross. I would touch it with tears during worship music...and grow closer...it meant so much to me...so did this Pastors wife...so when I found what she was facing...I sent it to her with my testimony-letting her know-she helped plant that seed!!

"Dear Heather,

I'm honored to wear your cross-I cried when I read what you wrote. To read your letter brings me great joy! I don't have a thousand crosses, but only 2, both given to me from the teacher I work for. Yours is special, VERY special. You have been so triumphant Heather-I'm SO proud of you!

I'm in Stage 4 cancer & recently have decided not to do the treatments for many reasons (one being I'm allergic to the pain meds & haven't found a prescription for my allergic reaction to the lumpectomy over 1 1/2 months ago) I feel total peace over this (my husband too) after much agonizing prayer. I'm casting myself in God's mercy and I pray that I will be fruitful during whatever time I have left. Pray I can be used by the Lord to bring others to salvation-that is my biggest prayer.

I do feel full of joy. Just like you prayed for me-it's probably because of YOUR prayer!

Your daughter is such a doll-what joy she must bring you!! Please thank her for praying for me!"

That was amazing words-from an amazing friend-pastors wife-suffering-yet turning it all around for His Glory-for she knew how much He loves her...and it was all about sharing that, still, with everyone possible, even in very hard times. Satan doesn't get the better of us-in anything-unless we let Him. If an illness is something that we can't fix today-He will more than fix when we are with Him one day in Paradise-and that is His promise. Til then...we use everything for His glory! Or Satan will have control...

Letter amazed me...AMEN!

2 Corinthians 11:30 If I must boast, I would rather boast about the things that show how weak I am.

2 Corinthians 12:8-10 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time He said, "My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may work thru me. Since I know it is ALL FOR CHRIST'S GOOD, I am quite content with my weaknesses and with insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I AM WEAK, THEN I AM STRONG.

Philippians 1:29 For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting in Christ but also the privilege of suffering for Him.

1 Peter 1:6 There is a wonderful joy ahead, even though it is necessary for you to endure many trials for a while.

God bless you all...stay strong thru Him...He will never fail you!

In His Love,

Hetty

Is weakness JUST weakness?

With any... illness,handicap,addiction,pain, etc...are they just a weakness-we were punished with? Or is there something more??

I have gone thru so much first off searching for Jesus. But never knew who to pray to about illness or weakness. When I got pregnant-it just got worse...and anger in me arose...I shut out so much of the world. I was hurt-and felt like no one would listen, care or understand. Epilepsy was controlled one minute-pregnancy thru it for a loop. Not knowing Jesus-or how to pray-my heart just hardened...there still had to be more of a purpose-are we all just created to roll dice-and every single one of us being hit with some weakness, trying times? We have to understand there IS MORE TO IT.

I have this epilepsy support group. There are several who know the Lord, Jesus Christ-me being one of them. A couple walking close knowing there is a purpose for everything-weakness, with faith in Him-brings strength-and ability to share all you have gone thru-and He got you thru-with others-weak in faith, or lacking it all together. These aren't punishments in our walk-I am so glad it all happened the way it did with me-as for it keeps me strong in my faith in Jesus Christ-as He opens new roads of healing every day for me. It has given me this gift and love to help others who are run down in faith-or don't have any-and are hurting-to stay strong...God has an amazing reasons behind everything...one way or another-He will get people (like He got me in 2003) to run to Him. He will also get those weak in faith-to look at all He has given them-as a gift-to help others find Him-and strengthen their faith with similar issues. You can take what you have and totally use it for His glory-instead of dwelling. Not to focus on your own weakness-just use it to help others with theirs see-that God has so many gifts out there for each of us-and they aren't to be revoked by an illness-any weakness. They are to be glorified thru those-showing that doesn't hold us back-just makes us love Him more!!

My friend, Jeanie has so many gifts. She has epilepsy. She also has Cerebral Palsy. She goes to my epilepsy support group-and when she speaks-says awesome words! But gets so nervous that what she might say is wrong-or people think she is just down right weird. These are the ones that my heart so goes out to. She has so many gifts-and I can see how blessed she is by Christ. She is very depressed right now-fearful to "bother" people to be her friend or support. I am one that is never bothered-and pray no one else is-we all have lives-but there are a lot of things we can set aside for people in dire need of support to help see-they aren't alone, they are loved by Christ, and have been given a gift to share His Word to others thru no set backs-except what Satan makes you think you have. This girl's seizures are controlled-AMEN-and she can drive so well with having CP. I wouldn't know what I'd be like...she is gifted!!

It isn't about our outside...it is about our inside-and our faith in Him that gives us faith in our illness-that it isn't a set back...just a gift we can help so many others with!! I am praying daily for Jeanie....so many tears-but when she talks and laughs-you see the Lord's face thru her! His love is there-just needs to keep growing and glowing-thru any obstacle!

Both my daughter and I have epilepsy together-I have quite a few more medical issues- and a third brain surgery on the horizon...but Christ works thru us-with so much love! Gives us both strength thru it all....you should see this child...she amazes ME!!

Weakness is not just a weakness to take in and deal with....it is a gift that thru Jesus-gives us strength!! Never forget that. Even on the hardest days-rest in His arms-pray to Him...and He will tell you your next step, in how to use it for His glory....until one day-He has used it thru you so well-it is His time to heal it.


God bless you all....


In His Love,


Hetty



Isaiah 40:29 He gives power to those who are tired and weary. No one can measure the depths of His understanding.


Matthew 5:3 "God blesses those who realize their need for Him, for the Kingdom of Heaven is given to them."


2 Corinthians 12:8-9 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time He said, "My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may work thru me.


Philippians 1:29 For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting Christ but also the privilege of suffering for Him.


1 Peter 4:19 So if you are suffering according to God's will, keep on doing what is right, and trust yourself to the God who made you, for He will never fail you!

Life finding Christ-

How can I break this down....

I grew up knowing nothing. In a town-that if anyone knew anything about Jesus-they sure were quiet. Only time I ever heard a thing about this "Guy" (aside from His name in vane in my family) was that show Jesus of Nazareth. I was about seven...and clueless...but it sure drew tears.
Kept living life...I was an epileptic my whole life. As a child I was a gymnast-a competitor...and in my heart...I would talk to "someone" just didn't know who. Had dreams-talking to "someone" about them...not sure who...
My parents marriage got so rocky as they lived for money and their names to be high up in the town we lived in..President of this and that...that of coarse led to women wanting my dad for material reasons...and he folded. And with my dad cheating on my mom started a whole new relationship between her and I...I was basically her counselor. She and I were always close. But she needed someone to confide in...and she did it with me, the daughter of both the parents. Which I didn''t think hurt then...but sure affected me later.
When I was 18-we had made our 4th move in last two yrs of my high school yrs. I was in New Bern, NC. I was insane there...was not the place for me. Some southern drawl I didn't understand...then people lectured me on this weird church stuff...not where I come from!! We don't have to do this church stuff-I'd tell em.....while I was there, I met my 1st husband-lengthier marriage by God-not by choice. We just jumped into marriage knowing each other 3mos. He was a marine. We wound up moving to California (probably half the reason I married him) But we had fuzzy feelings. Then when we got there in Cali-this is all 1996-he decided to press this Jesus stuff He had never spoken to me about-ever. At first I rejected it hard!!! Almost left him even...but then something tugged me. Half the reason was-everyone at my work, when I'd go to them asking them to back me up for me to leave him, couldn't-they were total Jesus Freaks! :) So on the side, I was learning from a friend a little...and started to go to my husbands church...but it wasn't but about a month into my attempt in my walking to learn more-that he cheated on me. After what I lived thru with my parents as a child...I had no forgiveness...nor did I have Jesus in my life yet-so didn't have it thru Him either...I was out of there...began 1 of my several move outs and to another state from him. We filed 3 times, 4th was our final in 2006. But God still has reasons for everything-during our breakups he showed me that I wasn't to be with other people-literally BIG signs of rolling my car three times, only breaking my marriage finger. Flat tires the night one was going to propose. He always is there...even when we aren't looking for Him.
My husband then, and I tried one last time-after another big break up-to patch it up. He had feelings that I owed him-even though we both were so equal in hurting the other...finally got to a point his temper was just too much-and we discussed it-he said he couldn't handle being with me anymore and was seeing someone else...I was all okay...at least he told me...almost before. So we decided to go out-eat dinner-drink a bottle of wine (which was the first time I ever did with him) and talk about who gets what. We were laughing about it all in the end-back at our apartment...which lead to the married couple's last time....except even that night something felt and showed me-it was going to be more than that last night...
Within 5 days I found out that was the night that got me pregnant. He was so angry-wanted to abort it. I-not into Jesus-still felt it was a gift from God. We somehow stuck it out. But my seizures got worse...and it thru his schooling off. He didn't have time to take care of me...and when I had our baby Tory-he couldn't take care of us both...so Tory and I went back to AZ where my family was-to find a good neurologist. There I was set to go thru my first brain surgery, and my husband had joined the Army so we could have the insurance for it. I made it thru that-no seizures!!! We had to move to TX, where he was stationed. 4 days after...he beat me with our baby asleep. Thank God for the Army...they kicked him out...took pics and records..I thought I was loosing my mind though...I was so lonely. I had nobody there. My family would not believe me-they can't deal with stress...so I had to pretend he lived there and we were happy and I wasn't abused. When with my neurologist I had to tell him what was going on to watch my seizures...and also this new problem that came in...overdosing with Phenobarbital-antiseizure med-to numb pain. I was so alone-listened to sad sad music, bawling with whatever amount of the pills and soda. Tears were uncountable. Finally...visiting a friend in Austin..we hit the ER 2 times...then they suggested I stay with them that night...but I said I felt soo much better-when I could in reality, barely say those words. I got into my car...blared my sad Matchbox twenty song "Hand me Down" stopped at a Jack in the Box for a BIG Dr. Pepper...then aggressively took off...on repeat..on the 35...bawling-saw the rest of the bottle of my pills...while crying about how hopeless life is..picked it up and slid every last one that wasn't in me already, in me...downing with that Dr. Pepper...dropping 7...that upset me...took little time to realize...that if I didn't see an ER or H sign asap I wouldn't be around...somehow God provided that...somehow...and ripped my car over all these curbs into it. Going thru my first stomach pump. My parents were called by the family friend that I had seen and jumped on the first flight to come get Tory and I...there was God's hands at work there....
They were upset..but so loving. It was from that point on it was battle time. I didn't have them as the mom and dad I could talk about the beating with...upset them too much. Couldn't talk about my new addiction when I'd get upset and stressed over this divorce-he left Tory and I with nothing. I couldn't hold a job with my addiction issues...I found my church one day-when I was blasted...God called to me with that purple sign that said Cornerstone. I knew that was the only way I'd find hope. I started going...every Sunday...but I swear he always spoke directly at me...convicted me of so much! God answered so many little and big prayers in that tiny walk...beginning of learning...but I was still in a battle...wound up overdosing in June of 2003-more battle on line with my ex who was in Iraq-(gift from God to separate us that far-even though that was tough) The docs tried to change my medication-I really wanted Phenobarb out of my life-took about 12 days..at home reading to my 2 yr old on my lap on the floor...HUGE grand mal seizure...threw up everywhere...was out for 3 hrs-bonked my head on the tile. When I woke my baby was still standing there-2 1/2 hrs past her bed time-bawling her eyes out-pointing at me-saying mama mama ...ugh!! talk about tears...I barely could talk...
It took several more times after being put back on it...and one final time-in October of 2003-that I almost lost my life to...that Jesus saved me from death...heard tiny prayers...saw the little walk I was trying to walk...He needed to have me have more than a wake up call...
Just following is when the love of my life-Christian-was shocked and amazed...over that yr...I as this new Christian on fire for Jesus...got him who grew up with Christ...ON FIRE!! And we dated the way God wanted us to! As my divorce was still going thru...God had that take time...and I look and see why now...it took about 4 yrs for me to really forgive my ex for beating me. It hurt me so bad emotionally...caused so much anguish-with seizures and overdosing...but with that overdosing...I have to look back and thank Jesus for it all...for I found Him...and it led me to going thru a second brain surgery-that was amazing!!! Following Him...in prayer-the second one was almost painless...which was a SHOCK-cause it was so much more complicated than the first!! The day after I got out...I was at Bible study!! AMEN!!!! I didn't get out of the house the first one for about a month!
With this walk came forgiveness...and when I felt God tug on me to do that....and I did forgive my ex for all he did to me-while also apologizing for what I also put him thru...God made me feel so awesome inside...like He gives you a new heart. And mine on fire for Him! Did it have aching times, yes. seizing a month after my second brain surgery hurt...but He has reasons for everything. I have been on a health struggle since 2000...and worsened since 2005. If I went down my list-you'd wonder how I still type! hahaha!! But the cool thing is...is that-no matter how many times I go to the hospital, and for what...He is there, holding me the whole time...
I have numerous health issues if anyone ever wants to talk-I am open-
We are now looking into 3rd brain surgery...God has amazing reasons for everything...even when it is a battle with health. It somehow is a light-not only in my life, but in others too. I am able to share His awesome love and Word thru these struggles and how awesome He works thru them! Never would regret a moment of it...


Blessings to you...

Hetty Siebens

2 Corinthians 12: 8-9Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, "My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may work through me.

1 Peter 5: 6-7So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and in His good time He will honor you. Give ALL your worries and cares to God, for He cares about what happens to you!

Born Again...

Who remembers the moment when they first came to Jesus?? Really accepted Him? Who remembers all the times before-that were leading them to Him, actually trying to find Him? Then the great question...who can remember (not all) the time that they had no clue about Him, and had others presenting Him to you-and were at first kinda humored...but when it continued, pretty irritated. Then over time it made your skin crawl? Gosh...I can say I experienced all this within less than 7 years. All beginning at the lovely age of 19...
Yes, I grew up knowing zero about Him. My parents were loving and caring...just wasn't in their skills of parenting-nor time with all the hard work they put into their jobs to make the amazing money they brought in...then, money was way more important than anything. I wasn't a big money freak oddly...my awesome brother was sure weaned that way. Go figure how God molds us for our futures-even when we aren't following Him.
I can remember the major moment I knew I would never turn away-that was October 20, 2003-almost saw death the night before-but He knew I had been searching for Him. Trying to understand the sermons, trying 2 be a good mom, going thru a hard divorce, all the while addicted to my own antiseizure drug phenobarbital to numb the pain of my ex beating me shortly after my first brain surgery. I didn't know how to give my worries and pain to Jesus yet. I kept trying to learn-trying to listen to more amazing music for Him that would light me up-as if I did overdose...even if I hadn't...instead of the music that would drag me down and make me look for those pills. He is the answer to every issue, pain, suffering-we ever go thru. We just have to invite Him in-He is already waiting to take those burdens and begin to help us straighten our lives to HIS PLAN!
I remember the first time I started going to church-in tears-drunk on those pills-knowing if I didn't find a way to get out of that mess-I'd never make it. Doctors were great help-but not the full answer. I started to attend regularly February 9, 2003-kept going and going-thinking every service was directed toward ME!! With the pastors eyes ON ME!! I'd even try to change seats...always came back. It was so odd, yet amazing!
I finally, a bit tipsy from too many pills one night, decided to pick someone to talk to out of the bunch. And I recommend this to everyone...not to just go in and out. The moment you start making amazing friends clenched with Christ-is when you start to get more understanding of His love. To this day I am so thankful He somehow turned that tipsy night-into a blessing for me guiding me to such an amazing friend-wasn't long after when I wound up in the hospital-close to death-and I had grown close enough-with His guidance-to call her and tell her. And she was up in a flash to see me-and had the pastor come up and pray-and that was amazing!
Where this all leads to...is I am getting this flashback. I am seeing many moments of the same steps like this, in my brother. He has had a hard time in life, mainly brought on by own selfish desires. Many so similar to mine. But he kept trying to shut out Jesus. I gave Him my words of advice-a bible yrs ago-and uplifting advice here and there. Biggest thing is, I have always loved him no matter how mean he has been, how far away and closed off, or how much he'd reject any advice. I know I have cried and prayed...but He does work wonders thru hard times. And right now I am watching some amazing moments being worked thru my brother. We prayed together the other day...and it felt so awesome that he asked me to pray for him. To hold hands and show him how I pray to our amazing God!! I got to see tears in his eyes, which isn't often. He was reading the Greg Laurie Bible I gave him, and was amazed at the captions it guided you with-things you don't know when you are beginning! He is so intelligent..so it is awesome to see him start something-a relationship-that you grow to know more about-can't just know overnight!
So, right now, this is really his first time reaching. I know it is never perfect...and there will be some downfalls. I am just really praying he continues to know Jesus is THERE-all the time...and wants to keep molding him! He would be the 2nd one (other than I) in my family to find Jesus. A lot of praying going on!
Love you all!! Jesus blessed me with such great friends...and I am so thankful!!
Blessings!
In His Grip,
Hetty4Christ
Psalm 34:22 Let Your unfailing love surround us, LORD, for our hope is in You alone!

Emotions...

Was so amazing...I have been told by so many recently that I have been an inspiration...and that just took me for a loop. How could I be inspiring? It is twitter-so it couldn't be how my hair was that day...or the perfume on...or the books they can't see that I am reading. How can I be inspiring? I sat and took it in several times when I was understanding...it is just all Jesus working thru me. I wasn't so strong in my weakness before. Before I would be full of words I cannot repeat with out being disblogged. (is that a word?) Suffering over and over before had me hurt, yes, but then angry. It took more walking again...more ups and downs with my illness-and amazing guidance and talk from our Amazing God to let me know He has me on His amazing path, I just need to follow Him close-thrilled all the way-as for it is all for HIS GLORY! And that is so true! Can I hear an AMEN!?? (still don't hear it..) :)

So to all of you on twitter who amaze me...but have said such kind words saying I inspire you...just thank Jesus for talking to you...it is all Him. He works so many wonders-and me being able to know you all is an amazing wonder and gift from God! Blessings to you all...know when times see tough-they won't ever be too much that you can't handle-and will have use thru it all for His Glory! Knock on His door..continue to pray-so many doors are available-just pray for the right one for you and for Him-have Him close the rest! He is my main door-the only one I need!

Blessings to you and thanks for your friendship, inspiration, and sharing His word and music! :)

In His Grip,

Hetty Siebens

http://www.twitter.com/AliveinMe

Philippians 1:29 For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in Him but also suffer for His sake

I'm ready...

For my thrilling tests tomorrow-that go on for 5 hours! Going to check my brain and its wonderful memory loss from all the seizures, mainly the large ones that do that to me. And it is the short term memory it effects. So when I forget to call, type, respond, check a blog-I APPOLOGIZE NOW! Just is part of all this brain fun! Sure helps teach me all of what to be thankful every day!

Seems we learn later and later-to finally begin to have those grateful thanks to our Lord and family and friends...that it is almost to a point of crippledness, when we finally wake up to our Lords love and mercy...and LOVE HIM SO MUCH BACK-no matter what is going on. I can keep crying to Him...but I know He will always take care of me...and that is an amazing fact I invest my heart, mind and soul in...and won't take that back...

I thank Him for all you and your wonderful prayers through all this. I have been inspired and alive to help others rather than dwell in a self pity party-and it feels wonderful! My prayers for others feels so much better than self mourning. It is allowed-and I have gone thru it...and I might again...but I know how to go to Him for that comfort these days...and it is the best feeling.

I praise Him for His love and blessing me with what I get to face-thru His love and grace. He will be guiding these doctors for the weeks to come and thru the brain surgery again! May Glory Be to God! :)

Bless you all...I will update you all how the neuropsych tests go-and appointment with my neurosurgeon tomorrow-time flies! Memory is down-so if past 7 pm AZ time...tomorrow-and you are wondering-drop me a tweet! :)

Blessings in His love and Grace-

Hetty Siebens

Hetty4Christ

1 Jude 1:25 All glory to Him, who alone is God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Yes, Glory, Majesty, Power and Authority belong to Him, in the beginning, now and forevermore. AMEN!

Finding My Best Friend...Jesus Christ

I grew up with atypical absence seizures, the kind you get the aura...then stare out..but they never went away. I grew up taking Phenobarbital. I also grew up in a family that didn't know Jesus. I got married when I was 19-and after we got married he pressed this Jesus thing on me...and I rejected it...our marriage was always off and on...Then in my early twenties, an odd type of seizure kept trying to show up during stressful times...and I wrote it off. Mind you, it was twice as stressful, as for I still wasn't into Jesus.Then, I was blessed with my being pregnant with my daughter, Tory...in a rocky relationship-but to me was a sign that it was to stay together. Soon after, during the pregnancy my seizures got worse. And weren't getting better. My neurologist in Alabama kept increasing my dose of Phenobarbital. When I had her, the seizures didn't dissipate. And my relationship w/my husband then-was getting worse. I went back to AZ to find a neurologist who could do something for it. In time, my husband-felt he had to as well. I had my first brain surgery in 2002 at the Mayo Hospital...I wasn't into Jesus yet...it was painful...but I was seizure free. I had oddly bought a cross right before the surgery, not sure why. Then two months after my surgery, we had to move to TX where my now ex husband was stationed with the Army. Four days after getting there, first night in our apartment, he beat me. The Army pulled him out, and in time my daughter and I went back to AZ. Where I was in dire need. I was in tears..and turned to overdosing on Phenobarbital, my medicine, to numb the pain. I knew I needed something else...I somehow, unwell...found this purple sign that said Cornerstone, my church on Feb 9 2003...and since then have been there...and seeking Him that year...finding wellness...almost didn't make it once after a ridiculous OD-the elaboration on what occured still makes me cry-but also tears of joy that He LOVES ME SO MUCH...That was when I turned for good, knowing I'd never turn back. I have been on fire since. In the middle of all of it-I found the love of my life-Jesus blessed me with-Christian Siebens. So many stories-He has patience like Jesus. God bless him... he has shown me what love is-how to accept it and how to give it. Thru every aching moment of life. He is a gem, in all times thru Christ.
A lot of brain and health struggles-along with my daughter being diagnosed with epilepsy. But He has opened doors for my health since...such as a second brain surgery in 2005 that was fabulous. I have had every test you can question....and been on every drug you could have questions about...along with knowing...if you don't have faith in Him...seizures tend to climb back up. HE IS MY MEDICATION!

He has some more plans underway-3rd brain surgery is being set up. I am limited to certain meds-and some I just can't take. Just got out of the hospital-as for it looked like I had MS or cancer due to one that controls me well-so I am back to seizures until fixed. He has amazing plans-and the amazing part is-I am calm-know all HIS control-and amazed at who this all can reach. I take the weaknesses in joy-for it helps me help others find Him! AMEN!
In His Love,
Hetty Siebens
1 Corinthians 2:9 No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him!!

Mighty Love-Our Light

I truly thank Jesus every day-for the life He gave me, and the death he has saved me from, and the strength He gave me to get thru tough times-while finding Him-and falling in love with Him. During that-my seizures that were once controlled by my first surgery-were out of control from a need be medication change, and stress from my ex beating me-and all that comes with that. But with that-I learned that LOVE for HIM is the most important thing in this world-and outside of it. He created all of us-and all around. He knew us before we were born…He knew what sufferings we had ahead…but He knew, if we gained that strength thru His love He shows us-sends to us, & turned to Him-He would begin this marvelous unfolding of His plans, as we began to grow closer.
How I did-is all about Him. As I have stated before-I grew up knowing nothing. So when presented something at 19-I rejected very simply. And it followed me around it seemed everywhere. Which caught my attention-just didn’t turn me to Him. He knows what it takes, and He is ready to do it for us-if we are ready to accept it from Him-and run to Him. He keeps trying with so many of us-as He did I for so many years. He has such patience…but He can’t do the actual turning for us-that is up to us. Not to be too big headed-too popular-too scared-in doubt…you have to close your ears to the worldview and eyes to what is available in this cynical world-and begin to trust Him…walk with Him. And learn about Him. And with that-you will not want to turn around. Pray before you open your bible-asking Him to send you somewhere that will truly speak to your heart…and He does. Listen to some uplifting Christian music. Will feel so weird at first if you never have…but wow! Was it ever one thing that helped me get energized on all He HAS DONE and DOES for us! We can’t live two lives-the Christ driven…Sunday-and the weekday popular cynical life-where we think it isn’t IN church…so no big deal. He is always by your side…and He wants you to be more and more like Him…perhaps preaching to the drug dealers on the streets or helping prostitutes by handing them a bible-not hiring. Jesus was “equal” in His actions to everyone when here on Earth. He lowered Himself below so many. Many would never speak to a prostitute-He helped her learn how to trust in Him and not sin anymore!! What a GOD!
To be like that with such a heart is how I WANT TO BE…and I am trying more and more everyday! Jesus is my everything…He just blesses me more and more everyday with His love and peace-and amazing family and friends…and gosh-such an adorable child I am in awe of!
God bless you all…He is holding my hand thru everything. He wants us to grow closer in our walk-and bring others to Him. And that is such a priority in my life. Praise Him how far I have come. At 19, I thought people like me were just weirdos! I like being that way if that is true! Well worth it for His love and to be in His Kingdom!
In His Love,

Hetty Siebens (@AliveinMe)

Matthew 4:4 ’People need more than bread for their life; they must feed on every Word of God.’

Luke 11: 35-37 “Make sure that the light you think you have is not really darkness. If you are filled with light, with no dark corners, then your whole life will be radiant, as though a floodlight is shining on you.”

1 Peter 4:14 Be happy if you are insulted for being a Christian, for then the glorious Spirit of God will come upon you.

Amazing Sunday...

You know...I have seen Jesus do so many amazing things with others...and absolutely amazing things with me and my health and faith...but we had something just way too cool and Godly happen today-as we were worshipping Him.
Before I tell you-I will say it is a God thing. God works in peoples hearts who know when one is going thru a lot-that it is best to just show your face so you know them as flesh-as a brother or sister in Christ-face to face...never too far! And an awesome couple that live south of us, gosh about 30 miles or so-came up to our church to meet me, my church-and another friend on twitter was also part of this organizing-I didn't know he went to my church Cornerstone too!!! Too awesome...God works wonders!
So, with their hearts-they came up from Casa Grande @RDBones and his lovely wife and @azbubba !! Along with my wonderful hubby @flyingchristian and my daughter at her Bible study! Was awesome to be able to worship together and hear Pastor Jeff just rip out those words that meant so much to me-as for my parents committed adultery-and it does affected all family to come. You have to find a way to deal with it. It started out psychology...and has ended up thru Jesus! The most amazing consoler, comforter, easer, loving Father in this world. With no co pay!
God bless you all-reach out to your near-by twitter friends. I think I will be driving state to state to meet you all-as for you all amaze me in many ways! What blessings you all are!
In His Dear Love,
Hetty Siebens (AliveinMe)

Titus 2: 11-14 For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and wordly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and Godly lives in the present age, waiting for our blessed hope, the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ, who gave Himself for us to redeem us from all lawlessness and to purify for Himself a people for His own posscession who are zealous for Good Works. ~ AMEN!